Dear Lazy Loser, Hiding inside of me
It's interesting that I had planned to post this letter today. I actually almost didn't post it but not for the reason you might think.
Today I also went on a personal excavation of all the things I've don't this year because a wonderful friend asked how she might support my small business this holiday season. At first I didn't think I had anything that would be gift worthy. But as I looked and remembered, I actually found quite a few things that might fit the description!
As I was doing that work, posting information and links as well as setting up discounts where I could- I realized how much I've really done.
And when I went to post the content I had planned for today I felt like it didn't match. Like it just didn't make sense. This letter to the parts of myself I don't like and make my life harder just seemed incongruous with this clearly productive person I was digging evidence of from my Instagram.
The reason I decided to go ahead and post it anyways is because the powerful realization those things existing next to each other gave me.
I am both.
I am both the person who is scared of the next steps in life and in my business AND the person who changed her life and her families lives in this past year by trusting herself.
I think it's powerful to acknowledge the evidence that these feelings I've had before and am having now are not all of me- but just a moment in time that becomes hard to ignore because it scares me.
I think it's fun to appreciate these powerful feelings side by side and it makes me excited to see what will some from shifting these stuck energies in me yet again!
Does this letter resonate with you? What parts of you do you not particularly like and make you feel stuck? Can you be open to evidence in your life proving to you that these are in fact only thoughts and feelings and not necessarily a hard immutable truth? ⬇️⬇️