I'm almost 1 year into choosing my joy & peace over the wants of others.
I will always be grateful for this choice and even though I found out only recently my body is attacking itself - I know that I have been attacking it for years before.
It makes sense that my physical body would follow suit given the terrible ways I used to think and talk to myself. The ways I allowed others to talk to me and how I gave their values priority over mine.
The depth of my mental & physical attacks on myself are still profoundly effecting me even now as I have worked so hard and for so long to get to this place. Years of generalized anxiety, major depressive disorder, bulimia, panic disorder, postpartum depression/postpartum anxiety, substance abuse don't just go away.
Neither does the years spent in cycles of burnout that the clinical system demands of providers or society extracts from care givers.
So in the same way and time I built up this autoimmune disorder, in fear, hate and shame of myself...I will treat it. With love, compassion, kindness, grace and generosity.
I have a full team of super vibey medical professionals who I trust and am enthusiastic to work with- and I am not in need of advice around diets and exercises or treatments at this time. But thoughts, prayers, vibes and love are very much welcome as I learn to heal my body through my relationship with myself ❤️
Another thing you can do- is to start realizing your own relationship with burnout and your hearts desire. I teach ACT because values based decision making saved and continue to save my life. I'm moving from a place of surviving to thriving, one layer at a time.
It isn't easy and it sometimes takes a lot - but that time, energy and resources pay in dividends to me and my loved ones.
Choose joy- invest in you. Because my darling, when you are in your joy and full up on a life of passion, you can't help but make the world a better place. And that's what it's all about.
Let me know What scary thing is between you and your joy and peace? ⬇️⬇️
Let's dismantle it together 🕊🕊🕊

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